Chat with Lisa Lui ("Lisal")

Come to Personality Forge and enter as a guest, search the "bot list" for Lisal under "most improved" and select "chat" to talk with my "chat bot" an artificial intelligence "girl named Lisa Lui, who is about 21, in college, and happy to chat with you."

Daughter in Japan

My daughter is the blonde slightly left of center with the big smile! She is in Japan for the next 10 months studying in Tokyo! All power to her! 

His Stuff Moves Out

Today, after a long long long wait, his stuff moves out...

My betraying, sad husband of 26 years! comes today to take his stuff out of my house... after his announcement in February of 2004 that he had "given up on me" (yes, those particular words are still haunting) while he was secretly sleeping with his director of nursing! Uggh.

"I will only take what is mine." So he says.

But, you know, he is a liar. Therefore, how in the world can I believe him?

I am feeling generous this morning... he can have the television he wants, two bookcases, a chest of drawers... I will offer the couch we bought together years ago, the old toaster oven, some sheets and towels if he wants them... maybe even a few dishes...

He must take his butterfly collection and his many pastel drawings... and please! All his clothing and whatever books and papers are his...thank God!

Been A Long Time

Been a long time since I posted anything at all on my blog. So much has been going on in my life that I don't know where to start. I do know that there is probably no one out there who is going to read this, except perhaps the errant wanderer or the friend or family member who may stop by.

MEPKIN ABBEY has been on my mind all week after a 4 day retreat there. What a place - check out their site:

http://www.mepkinabbey.org

and see what I mean.

This is a wonderful, extraordinarily peaceful and spiritually rich place.

odd times off

in indiana again, picking up daughter and all of her things from college tomorrow while my son finishes his final exams 600 miles away at his college... like having my heart split...

odd time off from work, for sure...

that's all...

poem tag project

total eclipse video

Three Burials of "Milky Eyes" Estrada

i saw three burials of "milky eyes" estrada this afternoon at the terrace on james island... i laughed at a corpse... and laughed at tommy lee jones as he was bitten by fire ants... i laughed at a blind man.... and gasped and laughed at death...

one of the fish i caught and released

a red drum or channel bass i caught in 2005 along the intracostal waterway in charleston, s.c.

firsthand account of iraq

"i was just in iraq... my father was in iraq... it's going to work out."

a pain in my neck

woke up this morning in the 40 days of lent without any thought of what i might give up... i have always figured that whatever i might give up during lent is something that i should have given up already.

i did wake up with a pain (literally) in the right side of my neck and in my jawline as well.

so far, this has caused a slight headache and a desire to SLEEP...

i imagine some of this pain is actually STRESS from the bizarre nature of my ongoing and utterly weird marital separation and pending, oh so pending, divorce...

sudoku online

SUDOKU everyday!

"soreness of heart" by val evans

what the hell i am doing here? on the plain
overlooking desert, cactus, deer? i forgot i found the bank here
in trash in an alley behind houses in raton, new mexico;
i forgot that william tell, in iron, shot an iron arrow at an
iron apple atop an iron child standing in front of an iron castle rook
- was this his child? his son? i forgot.

i don't know why i am here; i forgot that my mother
took the bank from me - what was i, thirteen? she has it on her mantle
piece; sitting there like she owns it.
odd, that this, of all resentments, bothers me more than any.

odd, that i have never forgotten that she took this
small, found treasure from my hands and left it there
above a fireplace in indiana

what is this? this soreness of heart over something i found in
trash in an alley in new mexico when i was thirteen?

"the sky fell blue" by val evans

yesterday the sky fell blue;
and i forgot my smile; leaving my teeth
in the water by the bedside

i forgot my smile floating at the bottom
of a glass; i forgot people's eyes
are able to see through glass; that
their eyes are capable to glimpse
remnants of my smile but not
what made me smile; what might have made
me smile yesterday when the sky fell blue

the day looked different after the sky fell
i thought i should show the world my teeth
but i forgot my smile in the glass by
my bedside; the sky fell blue without me

2-25-06 copyright

sled dogs on their own

today, i saw the movie "8 Below" a film about the resilience of a team of sled dogs left in antartica after a storm forces the evacuation of a research group stationed there.

this is not a great film but it is an enjoyable one... i really enjoyed watching the sled dogs survive on their own... granted these are not "wild" dogs but it is clear from the beginning that they are "working" dogs; so it is not surprising that they do not succumb to the elements immediately or even easily.

the loyalty of the man who leads this team on expeditions is commendable; and understandable.

this is one to see, i think, on the big screen. after all, antartica is a big place with big vistas and lots of white snow, white ice, and white winds...

i have decided to believe Him

God has been speaking to me with a quiet voice and then suddenly with a loud, piercing shout: proclaiming (and i am not kidding) that He loves me more than i know how to love myself, with a love that outlasts time and overcomes the limits of space. He has been speaking to me through the books of jeremiah and psalms especially.

He has told me that He tolerates the wicked, but that He does not allow the wicked to trample the ones who are open to His will; He tells me this is true in faith but not in doubt.

i am not certain that i completely understand this, but i have decided to believe Him.

tigerhawk on france's new nuclear threat to terrorist states who attack

matt crash's commentary that "ideas matter" in face of mining tragedies in w. va.

power of prayer

two weeks ago, i would have thought that my life was spiralling out of control, into the depths of almost despair; my focus on the wrong parts of daily life - on the emptiness of having been betrayed by the one person i believed would never betray me...

now, i believe that someone, maybe more than one someone, is praying for me...

that prayer is an effective one...

its power surprises me, despite that i believe that God knows our prayers before, of course, we even know them... and that He genuinely and totally loves and cares for those of us that He has called... and who have answered that call...

oops, i have revealed the ultimate secret... that God is ready to give and that He is the BEST of all gift-givers... gifters...

brokeback mountain

saw BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN last evening at one of two venues in south carolina...

a beautiful movie; touching, thought-provoking, sometimes disturbing...

strong performances from Heath and Jake...

see it...